yupyup!

we're fine now. =)

d msged me today..saying.."are u free now? can come over to my hse? wo xiang jian ni"

LOL i almost couldnt believe my eyes..and of coz..i cant stop grinning.

and in order to not make myself seem too sui bian..i replied "ohh..is it? really? then can u say it again?"

haha!!! so..yup. a night tgt..and we're back to normal.

sighh..a relationship is full of ups and downs..and i couldnt stand the 'down' part..too tedious..

=) thanx vaL dear..u're da best!

and to all my girlies..all of u will be there whenever i need someone to talk to..i lurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrve all of u!!!

loves.

presently watching sonria pasta..didnt like cindy at first..but now..ok la.

=))

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sighh.

i like to make comparison. i know in a relationship..it's wrong to make comparison..and i know that..in every relationship..u are suppose to expect different things from different pple..but...i WILL still compare..i'll still wonder..
why other pple's bf will wan to meet their gfs everyday (if possible) but mine wun..
why other pple's bf will at least have given their gfs a bouquet of flowers on some special occasions..but mine wun..(not even a stalk)..
why other pple's bf will contact their gfs whenever possible but mine wun..

whywhywhy..

i know...he may be doing things in his very own way..not by those typical ways that normal guys do..or typical ways that girls dream of..BUT i dun see any effort at all...

ok. he may be busy..sch..studies..but i believe that itz not an excuse.

i dun need flowers every meeting..i dun need us to meet every single day..i dun need him to msg or call me every min/hr...

i just need him to let me know that..ok. he's there..busy but yet thinking of me. if he's busy...fine..just send a msg which says..will be busy whole day..take good care or blahblah..things like that.. will that take like an hr?

maybe itz partly my fault..for..thinking abt him..every now and then..for trying to meet up..whenever i can..

maybe is our different pt of view...

or is it..horoscope plays a part..

character...

what hurts me most is..he'll always give me vague ans..i know..he's afraid that i'll feel disappointed..but telling me yes with that tone of unwillingness..do u think i'll be happy? or maybe he thought that i cant sense his unwillingness..? which is like...super obvious?

itz disturbing me.

ANYWAY..dear val..ur email makes me laugh! =) u're still the best.

my dearest girls...i miss all of u.

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hmm...is it really coincidental or..planned..? i trust u..but..it happened too many times already...

...

yay. tmr's a public holiday. hmm..revision period seems to be more tiring than normal days..not sure why is it so..

i've four girls in my class copied their assignments word for word. i was so pist..but i've decided not to scold them..but instead i m going to make them feel guilty! hahaha! i nvr pin-point out who are the ones..but i said...THERE ARE pple who copied their assignments..and i m not going to mark them! hahahha! i feel PRO!..haha

sighh...

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wellwell..my mentor will be on maternity leave next week le..i M GOING TO MISS HER SO! sighh...she's the first person i know when i first step into the sch..she's like my shi fu..and guess what..she stay opps my blk and her birthday is only 2 days after mine! itz like...so qiao! and we're so alike in many ways..so..after she goes on leave..i'll be so lonely..=( even though the rest of the teachers are nice..but she's the only one whom i can really talk to..

sighh

anyway..went out w d today..had lotsa fun. we played silly games..lol super dumb..haha! and...duno what's wrong w these days..today, d almost met in an accident again..sighh..hope everything will be really fine..no more almost..no more bangs..hmm..*praypray*

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wahaha! today i was being dismissed at 12.30 and after that went for lunch w a grp of chi teachers. had a lot of fun!!! they're so funny and lovable..haha! then after lunch..we sang! =D they're all nice pple. glad to be here. glad to know them. =))

wellwell..was still feeling rather sad...bcoz recently d's very busy w his sch work..this and that..no time for me at all! but luckily today he rmbs and msg me..if not he'll die! *evil laughter*

oh yahh and...dear's result is rank top 10 in his sch! hmm..he always manage to excel in whatever he's doing..hmm it's quite sad that when he's young..his parents never guide him..that's why he'll end up in em3..but luckily..he himself know how to think..so here he is..doing so well in poly. =)) feels happy for him. heh.

=) vaL darling..i'll be here for u! muack!

ching! i'll be here for u too! =))

yippie! meeting d tmr! woo hoo!

and btw..i did manicure again! wahaha! bcoz the manicurist saw my previous DIY nail art v nice..so it seems like they know that i know a lot abt these things. Thus,they appeared to be extra careful..lol quite fun.

=))

loves.

pretty nails make my day!

and i'll be attending my colleague's wedding in dec! so cooL! and my another colleague will be giving birth anytime! so exciting!!!

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wellwell.. me and d met in a minor accident just now..all i can say is..i heard a loud bang..and then we're on the ground le..hmm..luckily d's fine..as for me..ankle hurts a little..but nth much..so we're v lucky. =)

hmm..itz quite scary actually. i was thinking and feeling quite sad and then bump! accident. hmm..

so tired..tmr will be a boring day again...jing lan wont be in sch tmr..so wont be as fun.. hmm..

haha lihong's baby will come out anytime le..so exciting..and she was telling me her gynae and hubby's no. just in case..haha!

what a day.

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sighh..a super loooong day today... in short..we quarrelled.

he suggested a break up.

i asked him whether he still love me.

he said yes.

then we cleared up all the misunderstandings.

and..we're fine now.

the most hurtful part is not the idea of breaking up..but is the way he puts it..he kept telling me to find another better guy...kept pushing me away..telling me to find someone who can give me happiness..i almost scolded the f word. but i held on to it..i hate the idea of him not trying to hold on and solve the problem..instead he start to push me away.

tonight..i feel comfortable in darkness. i wasnt afraid.

even though we're alright now..i have a feeling that this incident..is a bad omen to our future.

it is always easier said than done. i consoled my fren ytd..however,i wasnt really able to know how she felt at that point of time..but now..i think i know. It is beyond description.

All these relationship thingy is too tiring. too mentally and physically consuming.

i m still holding on because i know that the time is not right for me to let go.

time will tell.

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yupyup! i loveeeeeeee hanging out w my frenz! we had so much fun ytd..laughing..playing games..making weird noises...lol. well..the celebration for ching and lays' bdae is great! the feeling of frenz bonding tgt is so wonderful..even though, our dearest fren met w some problems..but i believe everything will be fine for her. =) because...she has got us supporting her!!~

=)i m so bliss to have all of them! muack!

heh!

woohoo!


my dearesz!


WE LOVE THIS!


lol..look at what lays is doing..haha!


hmm..sexy..beautiful..gorgeous..pretty!!! =P lol


=))my besstie!

loves.

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i am soooo tired.

sighh.

i WILL NEVER EVER BE A SPINSTER~

no matter what i'll get married before i turn into a weird spinster! haha

students are driving me crazy.

tmr will be going out w my dearest frenz!!! woo hoo!

and i'll be colouring my hair this sun..but duno to what colour..just feel like doing something to my hair..lol.

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hmm..problematic kids i have. argh! irritating.

recently v fan over lots of things..getting irritated easily also.

duno why.

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wellwell..just returned frm my cousin's wedding at furama! hmm..not v enjoyable..as we're seated tgt w his other relatives whom we doesnt really know..quite disappointing la..BUT! jie appointed me as her wedding planner!!! lol YAY! i promise her that she'll have a wonderful wedding night!!! w lots of surprises!!! wahahahha!

still bloated. argh.

i gave the p1s oral exam today..so cute lo. they'll say things like..cannot sit too near to the tv..if not eyes will drop.LOL funny hor? must be the parents la. hahahha!

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wahh! some idiot stole my d bike's ''ca-bra-ter''(sorry arh..i duno how to spell and dont exactly know what is it..but i just know it is the part where the wind will be focused to turn the engine, thus w/o that..d's bike cant move at all!) Poor him..feeling so sad..and what's more..the 2nd hand memory card that he bought frm someone has got problems..hmm.. i hope that idiot's own vehicle will get stolen by someone else! if he dont have one..i hope that he'll have a whole face-ful of gigantic painful pimples!! if not..hope that he'll get caught by the police!!!

luckily, uncle's willing to pay for d. as in for the repair..so ..something to be happy abt bah..=)

AND! hahaha d's quite cute today..he kept saying..i m so sad..to make me happy, let's go to ROM tmr..lol.

muack!!! loveeee himm.

and i cant wait till sat!!! we'll be celebrating ching and lays' bdae!!! but the most impt part is..the usual few of us will get tgt again...=)) fun fun fun!!! =))

hopehopehope.

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sighh.

bloated..it simply ruin my mood.

and life is such a bore w all those fights happening in my class. fights which arises frm tiny-winy-itsy-bitsy things. when they grow up..they'll uds how dumb they can be.

havent been updating. as i m busy juggling w e endless work in sch,family,students,students' parents,friends and d. so sorry.

ohh! i've got a new phone. nokia N73. pretty pretty phone. love it. =)

ohh! sans..know that u're having exams now..once u're freed frm it..give me a call/msg k? haha! we'll go out and enjoyyyy!!!

wahahah! got a 100 bucks voucher frm mary chia! itz part of a teachers' day present. and now i've got my civil servant ps card! i can go lo!!! yayyy! hmm...maybe a spa will be nice...lol

anyway. have to slp. =))

miss my girls.(although we met up not long ago)
miss d.(although i just see him ytd)
miss sans. (who's still having exams.)

lol.

cares.

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