hmm..i duno what the hell is wrong with me..

i keep picking on matters...which i usually dont really care..yes i mind..but not to such an extent.

but i couldnt control my mood...i feel sad..probably bcoz of all the things pilling up..i duno...

BOO!

it sux. to the core.

d nvr ask me why m i moody...he only asked why i m sian sian like that..

i spoil everyone's mood.

but i feel awful too.

can anyone save me?

damn the whole mood thingy.

I WAN MY RAINBOWS BACK!!!!

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boo!

itz so nice to see all my frenz' lives so happening! heh!

anyway...nowadays i m very busy busy busy..like a bumble bee! there're endless things for me to do! projects one after another...cny concert done..here comes the comic camp..grandparents day...this and that..even though i have a co-partner to work w...but still..lots of things to do! on TOP of all those things..i still have markings to do! hmm..

...and i REALLY have to say this...i works frm 7.15am till 6.45 pm today! so itz like double session kind of thing. omg. so damn tiring! but itz a great achievement! hahahha and NO. i m not going to bcum a workaholic. coz i LOVE TO playyyy! haha

nowadays...i can really feel happiness. =]

wahahahahha! tmr's our gang's mass visiting day! ahahhaha even though i'll be attending the wong family's gathering first..and joining them late...but i m STILL looking very forward! hahahha =]

..and i really love my colleagues..they're such a cute and nice bunch of peeps. i'll miss them when the day comes. sighh.

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wellwell.. today's the 2nd day of cny and i m here againnn!!! hahahhaa!

prob itz bcoz d went on cruise le...so i feel a little lonely..even though itz new yr's dayy!!! hmm..

my voice is getting better le! much much better le! hehh! itz sooo nice to be able to singg againn!

while searching for a new blog skin just now..i realised that my inner self is quite peaceful ..i duno how to explain..but i think i go for..peace...calmness...purity...white..u know all the feelings that these grp of vocab gives us? SOOOMETHING like that..hahahha. pardon me for not being able to express myself properly.

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HAPPY CNY TO ALL! =D

heh! so many things happened within these few days. i shall begin w last friday! =D

friday.


i met up w d after sch..hmm and that was when i received my ever first BOUQUET OF ROSES! hahahha. yes my darlingSS...virgin attempt after 5 yrs 11 mths! hahahhaha! he's quite sweet la..first he met up w me halfway and walked me to his hse...he said he went to ntuc to buy some food. and after which i found out that he intend to cook sphagetti for me! =D

bcoz that day was the "cny celebration day", i worked non-stop frm morning till i meet him...thus i was super smelly. so i went to bathe at his hse.. and while i was bathing..he secretly left the bouquet on his bed and went to prepare dinner. =)..hmm... SO i discovered the flowers.heh!

The long-awaited bouquet! =D soooo pretty!

SAT.

Pic we took on cny's eve at his hse. =D after the buffet...we went to catch 'ghost rider' super scary!!! and again...we count down in the cinema. hahahha!

wellwell. he went on cruise le...will only be back on wed. =). misses him.

TODAY.

my cousin's twins are soooooo cuteee!!! they're only 5 mths old..and they are SUPER ADORABLE! hahahha Bernice and Vernice. too bad i forgot to take pic w them. if not all of u will go "WAHHHH" hahahhaha! played mahjong today and...i lost $12 bucks. still ok la hor. hahahha!!!

ONCE AGAIN...HAPPY CNY TO ALL! =D

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BOO!!!

heh! busy days for me...dealing w this and that..=D BUT finally i manage to get my nails done!!! woo hoo! if there's a chance i shall show u guys k? itz half white,half pink...with a whole row of diamonds in the middle. feel like a PRINCESS!

hahahhaa..tmr's finally the day of cny celebration. hope everything goes well. *cross my fingers*

hmm ohh! hey peeps. are we going bai nian this yr? or is it only at val's hse??

hmm...i lost my voice...for days le..and now itz still so husky. boo. sighh when m i recovering??? i wan to singggg!!!

d and i very fine. =D muackkk.

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i've no idea why me tears dropped when he told me those things...

he made it so clear...and i tried acting blur...because i dont wan to face all these things...i dont wan to make myself miserable...but i dont deny that...i did thought abt that before.

i believe in horoscopes...not 100%..but...at least 80%. Because i see real life egs..that's why i start thinking abt it..

i love d..i love his everything...i know i do.

shit.

i m really thinking...really start to think...

he dont know me well enough for all those...

why is it happening over and over again?

pple always say let nature takes itz course...I always say that..but when u really think abt it..what does it actually means? there'll be a pt when u need to do something,make decisions...so...how to let nature take itz course when u have to make a decision somehow?itz not like things will "settle" by itself? we still have to do something abt it...I still have to do something abt it!

girlies...i wan to talk!!!

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=) went shopping w val dear in the afternoon..and after that met up w the rest of my jc cliques. surprisingly,we have quite a number of pple turned up..hmm there were ching,pl,me,val,kexin,visha,huiying,layhwee,sky,melvin,adrian and wenkai! =))

and i really have to say that fish and co is not a place to chill. damn noisy.

hmm..i m having a very "itchy" throat..i feel like..someone's tickling my throat..so i keep coughing and coughing..arghhhhhhhhhh..

ohh yahh we chatted a LOT w visha..she told us abt her life in aust..very happening..she goes to a lot of hse parties..the shops closes at 5..these and that. so interesting!

hmm if i have the ability..i'll visit as many countries as possible!!!

wellwell.

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itz stagnant now. our r/s. it has bcum more and more like a routine.

a gd fren appeared. a fren whom i can talk to. a fren who uds how i feel.

IF ONLY.

we nvr begin at 14.

we start at 16 prefably.

we have a proper courtship.

we have a mutual r/s.

...............

no. i'm not regretting or anything..but rather i m imagining how it'll be like..if things started out differently for us.

i'm not confident of walking hand in hand w him for the rest of my life.

simply...not confident.

problems start to surface again and again..but i keep surpressing them.

all these thoughts running through my mind...

so is it love/routine?

val,ching and pl dearies..tons and tons of misses for all of u...MUACK!

san dear...are u v busy?

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hmm..d's mummy asked him why these few days nvr see me..when i just went to his hse ytd. hahah! so next time when i see her i'll ask..."auntie..u miss me ar?"

=) ohh! i MUST talk abt ada(my colleague). She's so funny lo! coz that day we were talking abt her son. a cute 5yr old boy. then i was saying..i nvr see her boy before..blahblah. so few days later...she called chiew hua (another colleague) and asked to meet me and chiew hua at the train station..she'll show me her boy. hahaha THAN when we rched, her boy held out 2 roses and said" wo2 deng3 dao4 hua1 er2 ye3 xie4 liao3" wahahhaha! we BURST out laughing. so cuteeee lo!

then after that...her boy started jumping and singing...then ada said.." boy..cannot shout when there're so many pple..shout when there're no pple ard.." OMGG hahahha!

so now we know..why her boy is sooooo funny...BCOZ..the mummy is so ooo funny! hahahha

hmm..these few days...i've got the same feeling again...

i'm beginning to wonder...whether we're tgt bcoz we're used to each other...or..is it really love..at times i know that itz love..but at times....... hmm...sighhh

i wan my own life back. nono..shouldnt say back bcoz me and d practically grow up tgt..rightt?

hmm.

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damn. i feel so lonely.

it sux.

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sometimes...when it comes to certain things..u may be holding on to a little hope. praying...thinking..wishing...but when the truth falls upon u..u'll feel so sad..moody...$%&!$@! @^!&*@ so shitty.

bleah! i m fine. really fine.

i miss my girls.

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my dearies! so sorry! i've been busyinggg w lotsa things! setting paper...marking books...lots of preparation work...rollerblading lesson..badminton nights..hahahha! so i hardly have time for myself! ( but i did have time for val dear! ) LOL touched horrr?

well..yes val. i m VERY disturbed by that tsu wei lun's accident too. i keep thinking abt it when i m on the train/cab/bus! a pretty young lady gone,so suddenly.

hmm.visha's backkk!!! she'll b back till 22nd feb! so ..ARE WE GOING TO HAVE AN OUTING??

hmm.. if only i can have 48 hrs a day...

d was saying he's thinking of booking a hotel room in sentosa..to celebrate my bdae and our 6th anniversary and he's SOOOOOO proud of himself bcoz he came up w such a romantic plan. LOL ok la. there's a littleeeeeee improvement. heh =)

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